About 4 months ago I decided to start using my drive time (about 2 hours a day) to listen to audiobooks, mainly focused on self-development.  It’s been over 100 hours of time that would have been mindless that I have turned into self reflection, learning and HOLY CRAP! THAT’S ME, moments.
     Over this time, I’ve listened to Gretchen Rubin, Elizabeth Gilbert, Brene Brown, and Darren Hardy, just to name a few. What I’ve learned this far, is that I have an intense love for the human psyche, emotions and psychology.  I’ve also learned that just when I think I have something figured out, I realize I have it all wrong.

Mostly, I have learned that I don’t yet know myself,but that I NEED to, if I want to bring my best self forward.  I have the tendency to attribute the qualities that I see as negative, to others, before myself. I am willing and ready to help others, but not myself. ( I haven’t figured that one out yet? Perhaps helping myself means acknowledging that I NEED it, which means I have to face my imperfections, shame and fears)

    Lastly, I think what I haven’t yet mastered, but am learning on a moment by moment basis, is that there is no end in sight…that learning who I am, and trying to bring my best self forward is never going to “happen”.  And that, that is what I love the most and yet it also scares me the most.  Some days I feel like the more self development/ psychology/mind/spirit/parenting/life books I expose myself to- the more i need a therapist.  I think thats the absolute beauty of this journey, learning that you want to be better, feel better and do better, but having to struggle through the process.  I am, and always will be, an unfinished project, and I am slowly (very slowly) learning to be “ok” with that, and occasionally even, beyond EXCITED to be that😀